I am seriously FAIL.
I fell off the vegan wagon and went back to eating animal products. For about 6 or 7 months now. I guess my shame kept me from posting here. It probably would not have been so bad; however, once you've gone vegan and done your homework, you know the terrible things that happen to animals--and your body when you consume them. So when you "fall off the wagon," you are aware of the terrible things that have happened before your food made it to your plate. So, like violence on television, you desensitize yourself to it. "It won't bother me if I don't think about where it came from." That is a cheap excuse; I admit it. I think my "falling off the wagon" started due to a mixture of lacking money and going through a depression over the summer. Unfortunately, it was a hole that I didn't climb out of, and it kept getting deeper and deeper. Since the same time last year (June 2010) from my last post, I have gained 90 lbs. and I have begun to feel like total crap ever since quitting being vegan.
Before this story starts sounding too sad, I'd like to say this.... I have finally pulled myself out of this hole, and I have begun a vegan diet once more! I attribute this solely to a friend that introduced me to the "21-day Vegan Kickstart" (http://pcrm.org/kickstarthome/).
While I'll admit that I haven't used their meal plan, just the idea of this kickstart helped to provide me with that first step I needed to get back to feeling more like me. I'm on day 3 right now, and I already feel remarkably better. I can tell I've lost weight--though it is not about that for me--and I feel like I have so much more energy and drive than I've had in MONTHS!
I hope that--if you're reading this--you haven't lost faith in me. I feel completely restored, and I have a hard time believing I'll have any more problems again with "falling off the wagon." I never want to feel that way again. I feel amazing today and I know that this feeling will just continue to grow from here!